Monday, December 31, 2012

2013: capricorn overview

Here is to hoping!!

Capricorn
Get ready for the deepest structural changes of your life -- ever. You're becoming the master at tearing down the old and rebuilding from scratch, and yet you may be amazed to discover there is indeed another, much deeper layer to uncover. Just when you thought your world could not possibly survive yet more gutting, along comes the mutual reception between Saturn and Pluto directly impacting your sign. Pluto rules irreversible, you-are-never-going-back change, while Saturn (your planetary ruler) is all about death, rebirth and total transformation. You get the gist: nothing will ever be the same, so close your eyes, take a deep breath and let go. On the other side of the wrecking ball is a beautiful life in total alignment with your true value system making the necessary sacrifices more than worth it. You have nothing to fear, because all of the changes will pave the way to such profound improvement, you'll look back and wonder why you ever held on to such a sham of a world in the first place.
Your daily life -- work, health and overall well-being -- will get an extra boost from Jupiter during the first half of the year. This means you can kick it up a notch by taking such good care of yourself that you'll have more energy than the gods! This is also an excellent time for getting your daily regimen working like a well-oiled machine. Eating right, getting enough sleep and making time for regular exercise are all essential in 2013. The second half of the year brings the luck of Jupiter to your relationship and social zone. No longer shall you be tired or lonely. Your love life and social world will be dripping in goodness and abundance.
Don't expect much solitude in 2013. Your social world is about to blow up -- as is your love life. The eclipse points will be activating your love and social sectors, assuring that you'll have very little, if any, time or space to feel isolated. Friends and lovers will be flocking to you like a magnet. The only problem is that you may feel like you're neglecting your career responsibilities, but how can you turn down all the fun? All work and no play makes Capricorn a dull Goat! It's rare that you have so many invites hitting you simultaneously -- enjoy!

2012

Where to even start?! What a year this has been. I cannot say that I am sad to see this year go, because there is not part of me that is.

I am ready to start fresh and move on to 2013...so Adios 2012!

From loosing my spleen, to having the blood clots, the PTSD & dealing with yet another year without a baby & not sure where we go from here...this year has blown.

It has had some ups, do not get me wrong...I have become so much stronger in my relationship with G. I never knew somebody could love me like he does. I never knew somebody could support me like he does. His love and calming effect on me have been my saving grace this year.

I have learned who my true friends are...you know the ones that don't walk away when the time gets tough. I am so beyond grateful for the amazingly strong friends in my life.

I have high expectations for 2013. I plan on finding myself again..to get me back. To get off these blood thinners & being able to go back to things I love. To do the things my body needs....to forget the horrible stuff that happened to me.

So to all of you reading this...thank you! Thank you for your love & support through this trying year. Thank you for always being there. I wish each & everyone of you nothing but the best in 2013...I hope all your wishes & dreams come true.

To my 2012 self...I hope I do not see you again anytime soon...it's time to move onward & upward!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Newtown Reflections

Please hang in there with me as I spill my thoughts out in a possibly not so eloquent manner.

After 9/11, I  refused to not fly because that is what they would have wanted.

After shootings in movie theatres, I didn't stop going..I didn't want to live my life in fear.

After what happened last week...well, I just cannot stop thinking about it. I cannot stop thinking about those little babes who so senselessly lost their life because of a monster. I cannot stop thinking about what happens if we adopt. I am scared to send a child to school. I am scared to raise what I think is a good child and they turn out to be a monster that could do something like this. This tragedy has hit me in a way I didn't know was possible.

I worry about loosing a child I do not even have. I know this is not the way to live and there is a lot more good then there is bad in this world...but this is, sadly, the world we live in now. Is this the world I wish to raise a child in?

My heart breaks for the parents and families of all the victims and I cannot imagine the grief and heartbreak they are dealing with...how their lives have forever changed. But do I let this killer who killed 26 innocent people & let him 'rule' my future because I am scared?


Saturday, December 1, 2012

Nursey Becomes The Guest Room

The room that was going to be the nursery...the room that the door has been shut since we moved in to the place; well, the door is open. The nursery furniture is all gone. The items we did keep are no longer spread out in the room, they are all in the closet.

The door is open now to show off our new guest room. Last week when we gave away all the nursery furniture we moved our guest room from the basement to this room. Our guest will now have a bigger room with a sitting area :) I love the room..I love having the door open and walking past and seeing this room that was hidden for so long.

The couple we gave the furniture to just found out they were having a little girl...so a baby girl will be enjoying all the goodies we gave them.

I am proud of myself, I did not cry, I did not think twice when they came to get everything last week. I knew what I was doing was right and the time was right.

I have said it before & I will say it again..this is not the end...just a comma
 
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