Please hang in there with me as I spill my thoughts out in a possibly not so eloquent manner.
After 9/11, I refused to not fly because that is what they would have wanted.
After shootings in movie theatres, I didn't stop going..I didn't want to live my life in fear.
After what happened last week...well, I just cannot stop thinking about it. I cannot stop thinking about those little babes who so senselessly lost their life because of a monster. I cannot stop thinking about what happens if we adopt. I am scared to send a child to school. I am scared to raise what I think is a good child and they turn out to be a monster that could do something like this. This tragedy has hit me in a way I didn't know was possible.
I worry about loosing a child I do not even have. I know this is not the way to live and there is a lot more good then there is bad in this world...but this is, sadly, the world we live in now. Is this the world I wish to raise a child in?
My heart breaks for the parents and families of all the victims and I cannot imagine the grief and heartbreak they are dealing with...how their lives have forever changed. But do I let this killer who killed 26 innocent people & let him 'rule' my future because I am scared?