Monday, November 12, 2012

Good Bye Nursery

"This doesn't mean the end, this just means a different path." These were the words from my husband as I could not stop crying after telling a special couple we would be giving them all the items from our nursery.

I wanted to give the things to them, nobody was forcing me to. I did it on my own, nobody made me...but wow, I was not expecting to have it hurt so much. I have lived this almost past year not really thinking about IF that much. My health has not allowed me the time to think about not being able to have a child, to think about adoption..none of it, as I have been a bit preoccupied.

This past year I also have only stepped foot in the nursery 1 time. The door stays shut to the room & honestly, I forget it is even there.

When I found out my brother's best friend, who is like a little brother to me, would be a dad, I knew it was time to clean out our nursery.

I know the chances of us having a baby are very slim. I know that if we do adopt, it will be an older child, so the crib we bought, the glider, etc...none of it will be needed.

So, within the next 2 weeks, I will be packing everything up & giving it away. I have already spent my time crying, so I am hoping I can do this without crying again.

I know I will be ok, I know life goes on & this is the right thing for us right now...if something happens, we can always buy new stuff..but it is needed somewhere else right now.

4 comments:

  1. I think it's an incredible thing that you've done for your friend.

    Huge ((hugs)) for you!

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  2. Huge hugs. It takes a very special person with an incredible heart to do what you are doing. It doesn't mean that it won't hurt though. Know that I'm thinking about you -- you are doing an amazing thing.

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  3. Big hugs. You are doing an amazing thing. <3

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  4. You are an amazing person and I can only imagine how hard this was. *hugs*

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