Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Health Follow Up

Well, if you follow me on Twitter, you already know what is going on, but in case you don't here is the deal.

Since Thursday night at 5:30pm I have seen 2 doctors & a surgeon & it boils down to....my spleen will be coming out on January 20th.

Apparently I had a CatScan back in 2005 for something & a 1cm mass was seen on that test (guess it wasn't important enough to tell me) Fast forward to now & it is 9cm...so growing. I guess a lot of people are born with masses in their spleen, but they do not grow. Since mine is, out everything has to go. I guess this is VERY rare...so rare the doctor was all excited about it because he only does splenectomys because of car accidents. Let me tell you how amazing it feels to be "rare"

I am pretty upset about all this. I will be in the hospital 3-5 days & off work for up to 4 weeks. I will have a vertical cut from under my bra to the top of my belly...how does anyone ever fell ok about themselves with a scar like that?! Now I have my fair share of scars, but right in the middle of my stomach??

I will become more susceptible to infection once my spleen is taken out, so I have to have a special thing of vaccines every 10 years. I start my first round tomorrow..I then just have to pay attention & if I get any fever or can tell I am getting sick, I have to get to the dr. right away for antibiotics.

I am so thankful for my amazing DH..he is really my rock right now. Reminding me how much better this will all be once it's done. How we can make it through anything.

I am also very thankful for all the love & support on Twitter. I know I will be ok, I always am...but I am really getting tired of all of this. When do I get a break?!

Sunday, December 25, 2011

From Our Family To Yours

Merry Christmas & Happy Hanukkah 

Friday, December 23, 2011


I thought I had almost gotten through 2011 with only 1 surgery & nothing major going only I should have known better!!

Starting last Saturday & was getting these intense pains in my side..I mean I do not even know how to describe the pain. It put me in bed all day on Saturday. By Sunday I felt like somebody had just beat me on my side. Me being stubborn, I never took anything or let my DH take me to the hospital or anything. I just assumed it was bad endo or possibly kidney stones. By Monday I was feeling rough again, so I decided to go see Dr. Phonebook just in case. I really felt like I was 'giving in' by going to the doctor, but I am really glad I did.

Dr. Phonebook did an exam & really thought it was kidney stones, but sent me for an ultrasound & Cat Scan just to make sure. So yesterday morning I was off to the hospital for my test.

First it was harder than I thought going to the hospital because it was the first time I had been back since last year when I had the surgery that took my tube & ovary. But secondly, I knew it wasn't stones..nothing is ever that easy with me.

By last night I was back at Dr. Phonebook's for the results...I have a large, 9.1cm mass, on my spleen. It is benign, thank goodness & now I have to see what the plan of attack is.

I have an appointment today with my GP & then an surgeon next week. I am in shock. I never in a million years expected to have such a large mass or anything found. I was the idiot thinking I would just need a good 'yearly cleaning' because I had adhesions, endo, etc.

Whatever the plan of attack is, I plan on getting out of my funk & facing this all head on. This will NOT get the best of me! I refuse.

I will say I am tired of being sick, I am tired of all the problems...but Ill be damned if this gets me down!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Happy Birthday DH!!

Today is my hubby's 30th! That means mine is just around the corner; scary!!

Anyway, I am so happy that we a) have the day off b) I get to celebrate this big birthday with him!!

I am so very lucky to have this amazing man in my life, I mean who else would spend their 30th birthday getting up early & taking his wife to the hospital for test?! I look forward to spending our 30s together (hopefully not with a lot of time at the hospital) & all it has in store for us!

Happy Birthday hun, I love you so very much!!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Not Sure What to Call This One :D

I haven't had much to say lately...so I apologize! Work is slowing down & I am finally getting my life back...slowly but surely!

I cannot believe Christmas is next week...wasn't it just New Years 2011?! How did we get here?? This year has been a whirlwind, that is for sure. But it is crazy for me to think that if we had accepted Baby M's referral, I would be celebrating these holidays as a mom. I would be somebody's Santa...it would all be different.

I am happy with where we are & that we will be starting our new domestic journey in 2012...but still bittersweet for me :( I can only hope that Baby M is in a good home these holidays, being showered with gifts!!

Sorry I don't have much to say now..Im kinda boring, so Ill end by sharing a random holiday fact about my family. My little family, the DH, Kiso & I have stockings that are high heels! I love my high heel stockings. Every year I hang them from the mantle & admire ;) I bought these when I was single & they have just stuck...however, I did promise the DH with a baby the high heel stockings will go!

What is something unique and/or fun that your family does or decorates with the holidays?!

Friday, December 9, 2011

1 Year Later

-Today marks 1 year since the surgery that took my left ovary and tube
-Today marks 1 year since I think any true hope of having a biological child left my mind
-Today marks 1 year, 1 WHOLE year, since I have had any surgery in that 'down there' female department! (I cannot even remember the last time I went this long without a surgery)
-Today marks 1 year since I started getting my life back
-Today marks 1 year since I started feeling human again
-Today marks 1 year since I began to understand what women meant when they said they 'felt empty'
-Today marks a year of ups and downs...a year of new beginnings and old endings
-Today marks the start of a new year...year 2 since my surgery, a year with so many possibilities

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

(Kinda) Wordless Wednesday-Surprise

Watch for a surprise that I have in store for you in January :)
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