Monday, October 24, 2011

Heartache

I try to be strong, I try not to let this all get my down. I refuse to let infertility get to me. I will not let it define me...but today, today my heart hurts. With our decision to wait, I will turn 30 and not be a mother. I NEVER in my wildest dreams thought I would be 30 and not either already be a mom or have one on the way...but here I am, a little over 2 months away & no baby.

Something has also hit me...I will never carry a baby. I will never feel a kick, I will never watch my bell swell as my little one grows.

I have to remember on days like today, when my heart hurts so physically bad...it will be ok! I cannot be mad at myself for having days like this. I WILL be a mother & every heartache, every tear will all be worth it once LP is in my arms...I MUST remember this!

Friday, October 21, 2011

ICLW

Hello everyone!! I cannot believe it's already the end of October & time for this month's ICLW.

Well, a lot has happened since the last ICLW I participated in!!

As of the beginning of this month, the DH & I have left the Colombian adoption program after 2 long years. A lot went into this decision & it is very bitter sweet for us, but we know in our hearts we have made the right decision! We are excited to change our path to become parents & will be doing domestic, infant adoption now. After 2 long years & 1 referral that had to be turned down, we are pretty worn out. We have decided to take a bit of a break. We want to enjoy being just us with no adoption paperwork or anything. We want to enjoy our new house & get settled in. So we are looking forward to a bit of a break before jumping back in.

We have completely changed agencies also & have picked out what will be our new one. We will be updating our homestudy for this change & the move..but other than that, the next 6-12 months will be traveling, getting things together, etc.

Other than that pretty big change..not much else is going on. I am, of course still having issues with my screwed up woman parts..but like I said, nothing new! I am getting to the point where I am ready to have what is left taken out..but we will see!

If you have any other questions about the DH & I , please go to our About Us, here

Welcome again & Happy Fall!!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Petition-Help with a Twitter Campaign!!

We are launching a Twitter campaign today! Would you be willing to help? For those interested, please tweet something along the following lines, and if you wanted to copy and paste this on to your blog, I would love you forever and ever. Thank you!!

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Ask “Quinn” - would you appear in a PSA about adoption?

Join us on Twitter to ask the actress who plays Quinn, Dianna Agron, if she would do a PSA about adoption. Here’s what we’re tweeting:


November is Adoption Awareness Month! RT to ask @DiannaAgron would you do a #Glee PSA to help? http://chn.ge/qHQxOv

Adoption PSA “seems like a reasonable request” says @TIME. What do @DiannaAgron, @idinamenzel think? RT to ask them. http://chn.ge/nxX0fE

We heart #Glee’s Quinn - will @DiannaAgron help #adopted kids by doing a PSA? RT to ask her. http://chn.ge/qHQxOv

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Follow Up to 'Me'

Opps, sorry to those of you that asked me questions back on my Me post. So here ya go...learn a bit more about me!

Missohkay ask: What are you talented at? What talent do you wish you had? 
Well, I was a dancer growing up. I started when I was 3 & went until my late teens. I did everything from ballet to tap and Hawiian. I just started back & even though the girl that left that studio over 10 years ago is not the girl that is there now..I would like to thin it's 1 of my better talents! (wishful thinking maybe!)

Ive always wished I could sing. I have wanted to take lessons for as long as I can remember, but I am pretty sure this awful voice cant be helped, even with lessons.

Calmantha's questions was: Do you travel? What's your favorite place if yes? Also, What do you sleep in?
I LOVE to travel!! I get antsy if I am home longer than a few weeks! I have been to over 20 countries & have so many more I want to see. My favorite places are Curacao, Hong Kong, Thialand, and St. Thomas.

I sleep in tshirts...my fave is this old tye-dyed shirt that I have...sexy, I know!

Nikki asked: What kind of books do you enjoy? 
Well, I was never a big reader until just the past 2 years or so. I have spent a lot of time reading infertility & adoption books...but I am trying to get away from that & broaden my horizon. I really love Jodi Picoult books & cannot seem to get enough of those right now. Actually just finished my latest last night.

In Due Time wanted to know: What are your hobbies? 
My newest is yoga...I also love to dance & travel. Also, I wouldnt call it a hobbie yet, but I have been trying to cook more & try new recipes.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Adoption Ignorence

So I was reading our local paper when I read this sentence in an article "Maybe it's a mass adoption event or something because it seemed like everyone picked out a kid and took it home."

This is what the writer said it was like in our town when the parents went to go pick their children up. Yep,  she compared it to a mass adoption event! I was SHOCKED when I read this. I read it over & over. I then took it to my level headed DH & when he even was bothered by it..I knew I wasn't out of line.

How could she? How could she said picking up your kid & taking them home was like adoption?? If only it were that easy, right?

I proceeded to write a letter to the editor. Not because I wanted to be published, not because I wanted to be that overreacting woman...but because I wanted to educate! The community we live in is very adoption friendly & there are lots of families here that have adopted children...so how could she??

I just wrote about how adoption wasn't that easy, how my hubby & I had been on this roller coaster of a ride for 2 years, etc. Want to know what the response was??

"Point well taken. Do you want your letter to us printed in the paper, forwarded to the author or just noted and deleted?"

Yep, that is it! Num nuts!!! I was so mad after this response...plus I had already said in my letter I didn't want to be published. Apparently they didn't read that, just like the rest of it!

Some people can be so ignorant & never will learn :(

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Bitter Sweet

Ok, this will be fast because I am getting ready to pick the DH up from the airport. Long story short, this last week has been trying! Between the DH's cousin dying & leaving the Colombian adoption program...I was worn out this weekend!

Yes, you read that right. We have left the Colombian adoption program. As of last Tuesday it is official. We had been talking about it for a long time...but we knew in our hearts, the time was right. It is very bitter sweet because we have put the last 2 years of our lives into this, however, we are excited for what is to come.

We have decided to switch to domestic infant adoption!! We are going to be taking a few months off just to relax, enjoy the holidays & both of our 30th birthdays & then start new with a new agency after the first of the year!

I promise soon I will write with all the details, etc.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

 
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