Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Worldess Wednesday-Beautiful Disaster

Sunday, June 26, 2011

I feel like a bad blogger, I don't have much to say; or rather there is so much to say just about everything going on in my life, I have no idea where to start.......

Monday, June 20, 2011

Tired of Waiting

Today has been a hard day. I feel like I'm tired of waiting, tired of wishing my phone would ring. I want to hear those words again "we have a baby for you." I want to hear those words & know this is OUR LP!

I feel like I have done nothing but put on this brave, strong, 'this wait isn't getting to me' face & I just cannot do it today.

My heart hurts! I want to be a mom, I want to know if LP is a boy or a girl. I want to be able to stop putting things on hold in our lives as we sit here & wait. I just want our baby home. I want to go for walks & bike rides & play at the park. I want to see LP & Kiso...I am ready.

I know when it comes down to it, our wait has not been that long, however we have already been in the adoption process for going on 3 years & I consider all of that somewhat of a wait.

I know I have to be patient. I know me getting upset is not going to bring LP to us any sooner....but today, I just needed to cry. I needed to be sad.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Secret Thoughts of An Adoptive Mother

I have been wanting to write about this book for a few weeks now & just have not had a chance...which is a real pity because this book is AMAZING & needs to be shared!

I read this book in one evening on my flight to Florida a few weeks ago, I just could not put it down.

If you are thinking of adopting, in the process or even already have adopted...then Secret Thoughts of An Adoptive Mother is for you. It was so nice to read a book where the author did not hold anything back. There was no beating around the bush in this book. Anything you may have thought about when it comes to adoption, things you would never admit to thinking & so much more are talked about by this author.

For me it was a total page turner & really hit home sometimes. The other times I was just so amazed by the honesty & appreciating it all!

Have you read this book? What did you think? If you haven't read it...PLEASE do & then let me know what you think!

Monday, June 13, 2011


I feel like when it comes to adoption, I have been awful quiet. I have nothing to news, no nothing. I wish I had some news, I wish I had something to share!

Ever since we had to write our letter turning Baby M down, we have not heard anything from our agency. We do not know where we stand or what is going on, but we are hopeful. We really feel like we will have our referral for LP this summer, but only time will tell.

In the meantime, I am busy looking at all kinds of toys, bibs, etc for LP. It's so hard not to buy things, but it's so hard when you don't know the sex or age. I am just so very ready for LP to have a face. I just really want LP to just be a sweet nickname & finally be able to use the name(s) we have picked out.

So on the adoption front, I feel boring...I feel just blah when it comes to blogging about it.

Friday, June 10, 2011

The Story Of My Lofe

I know, I know...everything happens for a reason, at least that is what they say! I must say though..I am TIRED of hearing it, I am TIRED of saying it! 

Right now I feel like I am in the "hard part" & trying to figure out why. I feel like nothing has been easy for the DH & I! From work to kids & everything in between! I am just tired! Just once I want something to go our way & us not feel like we are fighting for whatever. 

I guess I am just being Debbie Downer & feel the need to rant. I wish I could go into more details, but sadly...right now I cant...until then...F&*K!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Broken Hearted

I am so broken hearted right now.

Infertility is so cruel, it's so unfair! I hate how it can ruin all that is going well in somebody's life in the blink of an eye.

Seeing 2 fellow IFers deal with loosing their babies way to soon absolutely breaks my heart.

If you are on Twitter, please send MaternalTurtleLeLeIsMe lots of love, hugs, & thoughts!

The fact that 3 babies were lost in 2 days seems so unfair...the universe is totally sucking right now! I should not have to see this happen to ladies I care about! Infertility can kiss my ass right now!

Please keep these 2 in your thoughts tomorrow!

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

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