Monday, June 20, 2011

Tired of Waiting

Today has been a hard day. I feel like I'm tired of waiting, tired of wishing my phone would ring. I want to hear those words again "we have a baby for you." I want to hear those words & know this is OUR LP!

I feel like I have done nothing but put on this brave, strong, 'this wait isn't getting to me' face & I just cannot do it today.

My heart hurts! I want to be a mom, I want to know if LP is a boy or a girl. I want to be able to stop putting things on hold in our lives as we sit here & wait. I just want our baby home. I want to go for walks & bike rides & play at the park. I want to see LP & Kiso...I am ready.

I know when it comes down to it, our wait has not been that long, however we have already been in the adoption process for going on 3 years & I consider all of that somewhat of a wait.

I know I have to be patient. I know me getting upset is not going to bring LP to us any sooner....but today, I just needed to cry. I needed to be sad.

8 comments:

  1. YES.. i know EXACTLY what you mean...hugs and love in the meantime xoxo lis

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  2. Your LP will be here soon and you will know the wait was worth it! Not all that comforting now, I know, but it's all we've got :) In the meantime, you're totally allowed to be frustrated.

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  3. Unfortunately, I can relate to the PCOS and the adoption wait. It's hard and painful. And, although I did finally become a mom, my heart remembers it too well, especially making decisions about where to live, what to drive, etc. all with our absent child in mind. I would like to add you to my list of waiting families being prayed for at prayloveadopt.com. I hope you receive good news soon.

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  4. Patience shmacience! Be sad! Be frustrated! You're allowed. (hugs) and today I'll be hopeful for you :)
    xo
    Buggy

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  5. There is no shame in crying - cry away! Let out that anger, frustration, sadness and hurt! Get your heart ready for your LP - who will come at just the right moment.

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  6. I'll echo everyone else: it's okay to cry! It's okay to be impatient! You're human, not a robot. :) I'm so hopeful that you will get good news soon, and that LP will be in your arms shortly after that. You deserve it. <3

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  7. Its excruciating, believe me. I had many weeks/days just like this. I don't know what makes it easier. Hopefully, since you have had one referral already that means LP is close to finding you!

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