Sunday, January 9, 2011
I cried, big, ugly, blubbering tears to my husband.
I don't know where to go from here. I know I cannot stay like this. I know the surgery was the right thing to do & I would not take it back. I really think it is going to make my life better & I have not a doubt in my mind about that-but how do I deal with the side effects.
How do you deal with the fact that you have this amazing husband, who loves you, stands by you & you do not feel good enough for him? How do you look at him & have NO desire to be with him?!
How do I look in the mirror & see who I used to be? I don't know who that woman is that looks back at me anymore.
It's finally happening...I'm trying to deal, but right now I don't think I am dealing so well.
I plan to getting back to my full workout routine tomorrow, I know I can loose the weight-I know I can get my body back (or at least I hope). I have the mind set that I WILL get my body back...so I am hoping that helps.
But how do I get my sex drive back? How do I become that sexy woman that wanted her husband so again? I love him, I want to be with him & it is breaking my heart that there isn't a hormone in my body that wants to help me with that.
I sit here & write in tears...I don't like what I have become....I want ME!
Posted by PCOSChick at 10:55 AM