Monday, January 3, 2011


I am not sure how to explain it; my DH says it's in my head. I feel empty on one side. Like I almost feet like there is less weight on my left side. I feel like there is this empty hole where my ovary & tube used to be.

I do not know how to explain it other than, it does not feel like it did before the surgery. Is this normal? Does anyone else know what I mean? I am sure it may seem a bit crazy-but oh well!

I am also at almost 4 weeks post surgery (the 6th) & I feel like I mourned the loss more prior to surgery than I have after. I feel like ever since my surgery, I had 1 really bad day & now I am just excited, excited at getting better. I am happy about feeling better & being on the road to recovery. The thought of feeling better & being healthy once LP comes home is just so exciting to me.

As much as I feel empty inside, I also feel whole again....


  1. Maybe it's that whole phantom limb thing? You know when people lose an arm or leg, but they can still feel it? Phantom ovary?

  2. You aren't crazy AT ALL. When I had the tumor removed from my right breast, my right boob looked (and felt) lighter. I still feel that way. Sitting here right now, my left boob is definitely heavier. So it's not in your head. :) I am so glad that you are feeling better and whole again. What a wonderful feeling!

  3. Yes, I've felt that way. After my ectopic and surgery...and I think inside I'm still mourning the loss of my tube...of what could have been. Maybe I always will...I don't know. But, I've been there. You aren't crazy at all. Hugs!

  4. I can't imagine what you are going through. What an odd inner conflict. Stay strong! :-)


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