Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy New Years Eve!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Birthday Giveaway


I am sooooo excited for my birthday giveaway this year!! It's my last birthday in my 20s so I wanted it to be something very cool!!

The lovely IVFQueen will be making 1 winner a #Hope shirt in the size of your choice!! (Please see a sample of her work on a onesie to the left)

How much better could this giveaway get?! Not much, because this is AWESOME if I do say so myself! But there is one more thing!! You will also be receiving a Starbucks gift card. So you can wear your #Hope shirt, while sipping on my personal favorite, Starbucks!

So, how do you win all this awesomeness?! It's easy! 
1) Become a blog follower & leave a comment telling me you did so
2) Tell me what your favorite birthday party was
3) Go like IVFQueen's shop, Ivey Sew & Design on FaceBook once you have done this, come leave me a comment saying you have.
4) Tweet "I entered @PCOSChick's awesome Birthday Giveaway for a #Hope shirt from @IVFQueen-you can too! Visit http://tinyurl.com/2cx76z2 Please RT" Then leave me a comment showing me your tweet (you can do this once a day for extra entries)

So that it is! It's easy & lots of ways to win!

I will be closing the giveaway at midnight est on the 7th of January & announcing the winner on the 8th. Once the winner is announced, you will have 1 week to get in touch with me with your shirt size. If you do not contact me within a week, I will then draw a new winner.

IVFQueen as that you please allow a few weeks from the time that I give her your shirt size to get the shirt to you.



Wednesday, December 29, 2010

A+ Report!

This girl got one heck of a good report at my post op!

I must say, I am disappointed that Dr. Phonebook forgot to take pictures during my surgery. He was so busy trying to see if he wouldn't have to cut me, that he forgot!! He was even upset about it today..but oh well!

I had no active endometriosis on either side; great news! I did have a pretty large cyst on my left ovary & of course very bad adhesions & scarring. All the pathology reports came back clear too, so amazing news!

He is very pleased with how well my incisions are doing & just me in general. My blood pressure was a bit high, but he wasn't too worried, as I had just come from my 1/2 day at work.

I am cleared to go back to work full time starting Monday & I can DRIVE!!! Oh car, how I have MISSED you!!!! I also got cleared for something that I was told would take 6 weeks after surgery...the DH & I can BD!! This is huge, because we couldn't 2 weeks before surgery, so we are already at 5 weeks & thought we had 3 more to go..so YAY!

I am still having some swelling, tire easily & have been having really bad hot flashes, but at this point he is not worried. He said it's a lot for my body to adjust to, so things will be out of whack for a bit. If they are not better by the end of January, beginning of February, he said he will check my hormone levels.

I am ok for minor working out; which he actually said is good. Since I am prone to adhesions & scarring, but moving it will help keep that at bay. So I will be walking on the treadmill daily!

In 3-4 more weeks I should be back to me, just improved!!! So great report-great start to the New Year

Wordless Wednesday-Hopeful

Monday, December 27, 2010

Holiday Miracles

They can happen, they really can!

I have not talked much on here about my family, other than my DH, but I must say, I am one VERY lucky girl! I still have all my grandparents, a wonderful brother & great in-laws. How did I get so lucky?!

My family has been so very supportive about our adoption, even before we announced that we were officially adopting. I had always talked about it since I was 19, so the majority of them were behind us 110% when we said this was how we were going to grow our family.

My DH & I decided we wanted to try to pay for the adoption in full so we did not have to rack up credit card debit, close our 401k, and/or take out loans. We knew if we had to that we could & would, but it was not our first choice.

Last year I was so moved at Christmas when my brother told the family that he did not want gifts, he wanted any money that would have been spent on him to be given to us so that we could start our "LP fund." Then out DH's parents gave us some money-which up to this point had paid for a lot of the paperwork, etc. We have been setting some aside every pay period, had our garage sale, etc. I am amazed each time somebody wants to help us out-it truly warms my heart & reminds me once again, how very lucky we are.

Fast forward to this Christmas...nothing short of a miracle has happened. I cannot go into lots of details...however I feel so very blessed to say that we have all the money we need to pay for our adoption. Prior to this, we felt this would be our only child because I would probably have to close my 401k & wipe out all of our savings...we now no longer think that. We are now able to pay for the adoption in full, with some left over to keep our savings going & start saving for LP's sibling!!!!

This is such a miracle to us & we are so in aww of the love & support we have received. We are so excited that we now have more opportunities for our family than we originally believed...we are elated!!

I hope the Holidays bring you all a miracle that is surprising & heart warming!!

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays to all my wonderful readers!!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Christmas Survey

I saw this survey over at Kaitlin's blog & thought it was super cute!


1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? I am the worlds WORST wrapper! I mean it looks like a 2 year old got ahold of the package after I finish trying to wrap. I am all about the gift bags & boxes!!

2. Real tree or Artificial? I have never had a real tree...they are too messy!

3. When do you put up the tree? This year with surgery & having Thanksgiving at our place, I did it before Thanksgiving so everyone could see it...normally though after.

4. When do you take the tree down? Sometime after the first of the year

5. Do you like eggnog? Not one bit

6. Favorite gift received as a child? My Little Foot stuffed animal from Land Before Time

7. Hardest person to buy for? My family is not big gift people....so it's not too terrible. My DH is pretty hard

8. Easiest person to buy for? My brother, he always needs something


9. Do you have a nativity scene? Noppers

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? I always mail, I figure it's the only time a year I do snail mail

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? My grandmother gave me a pocket calendar that had already started to be written in, so she whited it out...lol

12. Favorite Christmas Movie? The old fashion Frosty

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? I do it online, so just whenever

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Oh Im sure I have

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Buckeyes

16. Lights on the tree (colored or clear)? Mine has built in colored lights

17. Favorite Christmas song? I hate Christmas music

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? We normally travel, but this year because of my surgery, we are here

19. Can you name all of Santa’s reindeer? Probably not...Dasher, Dancer, Comet & Cupid, Donner, Blitzin, Rudolph?! I think I'm missing some

20. Angel, star or ribbon on top of tree? Mine isn't any of those..I'm not really sure what it is..lol

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? DH & I have never been home at Christmas...so no idea & this year, we couldn't wait..lol

22. Favorite children’s Christmas song? Again, I don't like Christmas music

23. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? The music starting in like October!!

24. Favorite ornament theme or color? Don't really have one-but when it comes to lights on a house...CLEAR

25. Turkey or ham on Christmas day? Ham of course

26. What do you want for Christmas this year? I already got what I wanted & more!

27. Does anyone in your family dress up as Santa? Nope

28. Age you discovered who Santa was? I have no idea

29. Eggnog, hot chocolate, or apple cider? Hot chocolate

30. Traditional colors (red and green) or other colors? Don't care

31. Do you have any Christmas decorations on your roof? Sorry

32. How does Santa get into your house? Chimney or magic key? Chimney

33. Do you prefer gifts or gift cards? Gift cards & cash please

34. Favorite children’s Christmas Cartoon? Charlie Brown

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Happy Birthday Mr. PCOSChick

Today is my DH's birthday!

No matter what I say in a blog, a card, give as a gift-nothing can tell him how much be means to me! What an amazing strength to me he has been.

How do you thank the man that has been through 5 surgeries in 2.5 years with you. The man that has been through infertility & started the adoption process with you. How do you truly tell him how much it all means?

I sometimes worry I do not thank him enough, or let him know how much he means to me...I can only hope he gets it!

He is my rock, my love, my best friend & on this day we will celebrate him!!

So Happy Birthday Mr. PCOSChick! I love you with all my heart!

Wordless Wednesday-Healing

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Life is Hard

I'm frustrated because I cannot work out. I'm upset because everything makes me so tired. I feel like I'm letting work down because I cannot work normal days. I feel like I'm a disappointment to my husband...tomorrow is his birthday & I can't do anything fun.

Everything makes me cry...I'm not a crier, so why all the crying?!

My "nice" pants right now are black yoga pants. I feel unattractive & not like a woman....maybe this is all hitting me?!

I guess I am just having a downer day. Life is hard, all this is hard...

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Feeling Lighter

It's weird, I feel empty-lighter. I feel normal on my right side, but it's like there is this void on my left. Was that side of my body truly weighted down by all the 'bad' stuff? Is that even possible?

I morn the loss of that part of my womanhood, but I also am so very excited to feel better. To get my life back & spend more time on me & with my DH. I no longer have to worry about all the problems that ovary & tube gave me..I can feel like me again.

I am not sure if it has really hit me that I am truly missing a huge part of me..I am sure it will. I am sure I will breakdown. But for now I'm focusing on the good of this.....is this normal? Are my feelings normal? I don't know!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Wordless Wednesday-IOU

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Trying to Catch Up

This will be a long one! This is all I really know from all that I was told since I have yet to see Dr. Phonebook (will explain in the blog)

I was supposed to be at the hospital at 6am on Thursday & did not make it there til 6:40. I love my DH, but he takes soooo long to get ready & doesn't do well on being on time places, which is a huge pet peeve of mine. Needless to day, I was so mad at him, because the hospital even called looking for me. By the time I got to the hospital they were waiting for me & whisked me in.

I got in preop & Dr. Phonebook was waiting for me. I knew I was his only surgery that day because he was actually having surgery afterward on his knee. He told me once again that they had looked over my file & really did not see lap. surgery being an option.

Before I knew it, I was on the table, saying bye to the DH & was in the operating room.  When I wok up in recovery, due to the fact that Dr. Phonebook was gone, I really had no idea what had happened, how long it took, etc.

Once I saw my BFF & DH after spending an hour in recovery, I found out they didn't have to cut me. WOW, I was in shock!! They did have some complications though. They were unable to take all the ovary, I apparently have about 2% off it left because it was stuck on a nerve to my leg & an artery, so that piece was left. Also, I guess I had some bleeding problems they had a had time getting stopped in me, so I have to be careful because I could start hemorrhaging. That is why they had me stay over night, so they could watch me.

Now, this is when things started getting real fun!

My first roomie was a major moaner!! It was awful; each time she would move she would moan. On top of that the woman in the room next to mean would just scream. Come to find out the woman next to me was a "frequent flier" and known as the fire truck because of the noises she made.

By the time noon came around, I already knew this was going to be a VERY long stay! However, I lucked out & at 1 them came for Sally, the moaning roommate! She went for some testing, however she never came back. I hope she was/is ok...but this meant I could try to rest.

Now, mind you, I was in the part of the room closes to the door & this became a HUGE pain! Everyone would keep coming in for Sally...so they would barge past me...looking for her, sometimes stopping & wanting to shoot the crap...sorry, not in the mood!

Finally fell asleep about 8 & at 11 some guy comes in looking over at the other side of the room...I was like sorry, Sally is gone. His response, oh no, I'm not looking for her-you are getting a roommate! Are you kidding me?!

The proceed to bring this woman in that looks like she already has 1 foot in the grave! They are in there for over 2 hours working on her with everything from breathing treatments, to figuring out her sugar level. Long story short-she wasn't all there, screamed all night & was going to be having a leg, if not 2 amputated the next morning.

So about 4, the night nurse comes in & is like you haven't slept. I was like between getting the new roomie & fire truck has woke up & my blood constantly being drawn, you are right-I haven't slept. At 4 they decided I didn't need my IV anymore, which turned into a huge mess! Blood everywhere, new blankets! Then tried to get my blood at 4 & couldn't get a vein. They had to get a specialist for that.

By this point, I still have not seen the doctor that is supposed to be helping Dr. Phonebook, I have no idea if I am leaving, etc-so I started making it VERY clear to anyone that would listen, that if I had to stay that they were moving me.

Well at 5am, a surgeon comes in & wants to know why I haven't been eating solids-ummmmm because nobody will give them to me! They tell me I'm on a liquid diet & I do not know why. Then like 10 mins later another surgeon comes in & tells me he wants my dressings changed & he would send somebody. Nobody comes & I say something to the nurse & she is like you do not have dressings! She gives me some dry rags though to like scrap off dried blood-awesome!

FINALLY about 6 the Dr. helping Dr. Phonebook comes in. I am not kidding when I say that he was in the room less than a minute. He said that he stopped in during surgery, saw my endo was VERY bad & the bloodwork had all come back ok, so he signed my discharge papers.

At that moment, he left! I texted my DH-asked him to get there ASAP & told the nurse. The nurses were great & all kept telling me they felt super sorry for me since all I had been through while I was there. They sped up my paperwork & I was outta there & home by 9am!

Sooooooo long story short! The hospital visit was AWFUL! I was able to have everything removed laposcopically. I am just waiting to finally be able to talk to Dr. Phonebook. I know that if he had been there, that my experience wouldn't have been as bad & I wouldn't have not be left wondering what all was going on.

Ok, I do know though-my uterus & right site look good & Dr. Phonebook said he would like nothing more than to see us with our miracle baby. Right now, I cannot even think about that. We do not plan on thinking of more kids until after LP has been home for a while.

I am home for 3 weeks. No driving, no nada! I have to be careful as not to hemorrhage. Even after the 29th-I still am limited for 6 weeks total!

Thank you everyone for all the love & support.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Just had to let everyone know that PCOSChick is out of surgery...2 hours early! Doctor just came out and told DH and I that it was best case scenario! She is being kept overnight but doctor says it went better than expected! Keep the good thoughts coming for a quick recovery...I know they helped her get thru this surgery! I will update again soon!

Oophorectomy

As you read this, I am currently at the hospital having a unilateral Oophorectomy. Yep, that is right an Oophorectomy!! Say that 3 times fast :)

Did you know what this what the surgery is called when you have an ovary removed?! I mean what ever happened to just calling the surgery ovarian removal? Why the big long fancy name?? Dr. Phonebook even agreed that the name is a bit much!

I am not only having an Oophorectomy, I am also having my fallopian tube removed & my bowel fixed in any way it may need.

I will not know until I wake up if the surgery was done laparoscopically or an incision was made. However Dr Phonebook told me because I am such a mess to pretty much count on being cut! Depending on how it was done my recovery will either be a week or 6 weeks (so planning for 6).

I will also have to stay at least tonight, if not tomorrow. I am however, really hoping to be home by tomorrow. So I guess you could say, a few unknowns.

When it's all said & done...this is what I'll have.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Wordless Wednesday-Surgery

Here is to hoping tomorrow isn't like this!

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Blog Award

The lovely Pixie over at Cheese Curds & Kimchi has passed The Versatile Blogger award on to me! If you have not checked out her blog, please do so! She has some great post & encourage her on her journey to become a mommy :)


So here's rules for the award:
~Thank and link back to the person who gave you the award.
~Share 7 things about yourself.
~Pass the award along to 7 other bloggers who you recently discovered and think are fabulous.
~Contact the bloggers you chose and let them know about the award

1) I like to drink water with my coffee. There is just something about following up a nice drink of coffee with another of cold water, odd, I know!
2) My heated mattress pad is one of my most prized possessions! I love that thing & HIGHLY recommend one to anybody!
3) I do not know what I did for clothes before Target! If it doesn't come from Target, I don't own it. When Target came to my town, it was all down hill for my pocket book from there.
4) I named my dog after a mountain range in Japan because when I was bringing him home from the breeder he just kept climbing all over everyone & thing.
5) I am named after my dad's kindergarten crush-yes, my mom agreed :)
6) I've always known I wanted to adopt. I wanted to no matter if I could have children or not & I didn't care if I was married or single.
7) I do not know now to turn down a boiled and/or deviled egg....I just love them

I am passing this award on to the following 7 lovely bloggers, because I would like to learn more about them.

Al over at Mission Motherhood
Tillie at A Nuttier Life
Kaitlin from Ah...My Married Life
Keiko at Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed
Suzy over at Not A Fertile Myrtle 
JJ from Reproductive Jeans
Jess at A Greater Yes: Our Story Of Embryo Adoption

Friday, December 3, 2010

Hurting Heart

I was telling my BFF that I think surgery hurts my heart more than anything. Even though this is not my first major surgery like this & I know what to expect, my heart still hurts.

I do not worry about the pain of the surgery, I do not worry about recovery time-this is old hat (sadly) for me. I worry about my heart!

I know I am infertile, I know I will never have children, this is all ok. I have had time to deal & know that this all has happened for a reason. I am excited for the adventure ahead of us & how our family is growing through adoption. However, I still have a hard time with the fact that my body failed.

Surgery is a reminder of how my body failed me, my husband, my family. Surgery makes my heart hurt in a way that is deep & gut wrenching.

I worry about being a burden to my family & having to be taken care of. This is so very hard for me. This will be my 5th surgery since my DH & I have been married & it just weighs on me. I know he loves me, I know he stands by me no matter what...but this is just another hurt.

I know I probably shouldn't hurt like this. If I am ok with not being able to have children, why does it still hurt so that my body failed?

With each surgery, my heart hurts a bit more-I add another band-aid to it & move forward.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

 
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