Sunday, August 29, 2010

Lucy the Lump

Yep, I am going to write about my right boob. After a "survey" of sorts on Twitter, I decided I would go ahead & share what is going on with me & Lucy the lump as I have come to call her.

I normally do pictures with my post, but I decided the post alone would bring enough weirdos, I didn't need to add some random picture!

This is all happening so fast. I mean, I know I found out about the lump a month ago, but as far as round 2 is going; it is fast! If you missed my original post about Lucy, you can catch up here.

So when I went back last Thursday, I knew what would happen, but I think I was a bit in denial. I as so proud of myself, I had given up ALL caffeine. Which, I will admit, I didn't really realize how much had caffeine it in. It was not as bad as I thought it would be, only because it was medically induced. I had never been able to give it up just because, but apparently if you scare me enough, I can do it!

Anyway, I go to Dr. Phonebook & he tells me he doesn't feel that it has gotten any smaller, even with the lack of caffeine. I do have a funny story about the appointment though. He had a med student with him. After all I have been through, I am an open book. If somebody can learn from my odd body, more power to em, let them in. So after he feels the lump, he ask if it is ok if she does....sure, why not! Let's all play with my boob! So she comes over, this little petite thing & she looks scared to death. Her hands are sooooo cold & she barely touches me. Dr. Phonebook was like, you cannot be afraid to touch her, if it hurts, she will let you know...she still barely touches me. I just wanted to be like..listen girl, it's just a boob that happens to have a lump. If you want to be an OB, you are gonna see a come on, touch my boob!

After the boob touching, or lack of...he told me he wanted to get a mammo & speak with a surgeon. He told me over & over he is still very optimistic that it is not cancer, but he wants to be safe & due to the size, I should see a surgeon. He then goes on to tell me the surgeon that is assisting with my tube & ovary removal in December also does lumps, so I could go back to him if I want. Let's call him Dr. Turkey (since I was in the turkey themed room when I saw him)

I won't lie. I came home & I was mad. I was mad that I had to deal with something else...what more could I deal with?! I was mad that as we are on the downhill of the adoption I have more physical stuff to deal with & the timing is just down right shitty. I was pretty down that night...quiet & went to sleep early, I just need to chill.

Friday I started making all the phone calls I needed to in order to get the ball rolling. Needless to say, that started a nightmare!! I was told when I called the breast evaluation center that I was too young for a mammo, they wouldn't do it. EXCUSE ME?! I have something in me & you are telling me I am too young?!

I proceed to call the insurance to see if it was an insurance thing or the shits (excuse me) at the hospital that felt I was too young...I ended up finding out it was the hospital...AWESOME! Anyway, I had to cal the doctor back & have the script rewritten for an ultrasound & then a mammo if necessary. So that is now the plan...a waste of time & money if you ask me...but whatever.

I then called Dr. Turkey's office & they wanted to get me in as soon as they could get the results, so I now go to him on Thursday. They told me even if they didn't have the results, he would call them & just get it that way. So yeah, come next Thursday afternoon, I will have an idea of what is going on with my boob.

I am not overally scared, as Dr. Google has reminded me I do not have the signs of cancer. Thank you Dr. Google, you can be nice sometimes. I have however thought about what I would do if it was...just because I feel I need to think about that while I am calm & not emotional.

I just want it taken care of. I want it done & over with & then I can move on. I wonder if it needed drained or cut out if they can just wait until December & just remove the lump, the tube, the ovary all in 1 shot & just bandage me like a mummy...but I doubt that will happen.

So for now, that is where I stand. Ultrasound Tuesday & surgeon Thursday. More stories of my boob to come..

Saturday, August 28, 2010

The Dreaded Homestudy

Ok, so I've been a BAD blogger this week & have so much to catch on!

First we will start with the homestudy. We had been working out butts off to make sure that all the little things around the house were done. I also wanted as much paperwork done as possible, so that could be done & out of the way & given to the social worker when she came. Monday & Tuesday night we were both like chicken's with our heads cut off.

Now I know, everyone tells you that the homestudy is really nothing to worry about. I know I should have listened, but that was just impossible! We had the housekeeper come on Tuesday & scrub everything from top to bottom...baseboards & all. I worked so hard on our emergency contact magnet for the fridge, while the DH worked his magic on our fire escape plan.

Come Wednesday morning, the nerves started kicking in. I had not been nervous at all up until then. I was more in the mind set that I just wanted it done & over with & to move on to the next thing. Well we left work about an hour & a half before the SW was to be there & let me just tell you..I was a WRECK!! I peed so many times from nerves that I debated on just sitting in the bathroom for the homestudy :) The DH told me there was really nothing to worry about, it wasn't like she held our future in her hands or anything...gee thanks hun! I was trying to calm myself down by watching TV & trying to forget & the cable went out! Perfect timing Time Warner, thank you oh so very much! So the DH put some music on & started playing Michael Buble (always a good choice). This of course was all after the ant problem we came home to!

We have had NO ant problems what so ever all year! We always leave Kiso's food out, however this day, the 1 day that I need the house to be perfect, we come home to an army of ants; I mean a stream of them, walking from his food to the other side of the kitchen! So we scramble around trying to kill them & clean things up. I'm spraying bug spray to stop them from coming in-then I freak that the house smells of bug spray, this is probably looked down upon in the homestudy world! So I open all the windows, light a candle & hope the place airs out! Thank goodness it did, however of course the lawn people were working outside most of the time..oh well!

We had also been working with Kiso so he would not bark with the SW rang the doorbell. He barks, almost this high pitch bark, like it hurts his ears. Every night the past couple of weeks we had been ringing the door bell & whatnot. He had been getting so good & wouldn't you know the SW comes & doesn't even ring the doorbell because the screen door was open..ha! Oh well! I will admit, I was a bit worried about Kiso. He sometimes can be a bit protective. He never would hurt anyone...just gets a bit yappy. Needless to say, I guess my "speech" I gave him the night before while I gave him a bath worked! He laid in his bed the entire time she was there! THANK YOU KISO!!

So anyway, the social worker arrives & I totally get all into sitting down with her & starting things & forget to offer her anything to drink-opps! This after I made sure we had plenty of options to offer her. Good thing I caught it in a few minutes & was able to offer her something!

She was really a great lady. She showed us pictures of her grandchildren & told stories how the one was adopted, & so was his mom. It was nice to see that she too had a family that was passionate about adoption. The entire homestudy it's self was not bad at all. It was a lot of questions! Everything to how to your parents discipline you as a child, to what were your child care plans. It was nice because she asked my DH all his set of questions first, which gave me some time to listen & prepare my answers for mine! We then answered some questions together.

Now remember when I said the DH put on Michael Buble to calm me..this is when it gets good! He left it playing in the background the entire time. We get to the very last question & our wedding song comes on-perfect timing!!

After the questions she asked to see the room that would be the nursery & the fire extinguisher in the kitchen...that was it! I have to say, I was a bit disappointed that she did not ask to see anything else! I mean we had been working so hard..didn't she want to see the clean baseboards or under the sinks where I organized?!

And that was it folks...she left! Why did I feel the need to pee so much?! That was so easy & I felt like a dork after for getting so worried.

She told us it would be a week to 2 weeks before we receive the draft of the homestudy. At that time we will look over it to make sure that things are spelled write, fact are correct, etc. Then all we are waiting for is the DH's 2 child abuse clearances & our fire inspection. Those are the only things left to finish the homestudy. We also need to get our fingerprints back from the FBI & then that is it! We are done!!

I cannot believe a year ago we were just starting this process & here we are, almost ready to begin our wait!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

30 of 30

30 days is over, I cannot believe it. I really have enjoyed this 30 days of post.

So here we are, on the last day & the question that this will be ending with is: What is your dream for the future?!

My dream is to be a good mother. I want LP to know that he or she was so loved & wanted, even before we had a face to go with this nickname. I want LP to know that adoption was never 2nd for us, this was how we were meant to become a family & we wanted them to come into our lives this way. There was never a doubt we were meant to become LP's parents this way & become a family like this.

I want to be there for the first day of kindergarten & be there when they get home from school. I want to be there for the first dance class or soccer game (or whatever their heart desires!) I want to not miss a thing!

I am so excited to see LP blossom before my eyes & I do not want to miss a thing. I never want LP to think I was too busy to be there for them.

This is my dream...just to be the best mom I can

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

The Next 365

Here we are at day 29 of 30! Today's question is what are my hopes, dreams & plans for the next 365 days?!

This is a pretty loaded question & honestly if you asked me a year ago if I would be where I am now, I would tell you that you were crazy!

I really do not know what to expect anymore with all that life throws at me!

Some of my plans are to spend more time with the Dh & really enjoy some us time. We like to do things that we know would be harder with LP while he or she is still young.  I plan on going on our cruise next spring & relaxing & just being us.

I want to work on our bit of debt & work on saving more to pay for the adoption without taking out loans, using credit cards or anything.

What are some of my! To loose weight & get in a better workout routine & STICKING to it! I'm awful about starting, but not sticking! I want to work around our house more & finish my list of things I would like done before possibly putting the place on the market in the next year or 2.

My dream I think will come true & that is to become a mother in 2011.

Wordless Wednesday-Today Is....

Home Study Day!!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

What's In Your Purse

What is in my purse?! Everything but the kitchen sink! You name it, I have it...this is why I carry a big purse at all times. (yes this is the purse I am currently carrying!)

I have....
An umbrella
A wallet with checkbook
A wrist wallet (where keep things like my debit card to get to easier)
A coupon binder
Lip Gloss
Nail File
Business Cards from BlogHer
One of Kiso's shirts (not sure why!)
Glass Case
Hotel reservation paperwork from 2 weeks ago
A Brush
Oil Absorbing Sheets (scary but they rock!)
Cough drops
BlogHer Party tickets

Wow...I need to clean this thing!

Monday, August 23, 2010

Worst Habit

I am not a fingernail chewer, I'm a skin around the nails chewer....awful, I know!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

My Week

Day 26 is my week in full detail...Again, like yesterday, I feel boring. This week has not be overally exciting.

Monday I played catch up at work after being gone all last week. Monday's are always crazy, but then when you add catch up; it makes it insane! Needless to say, by the days end, I was beat & fell asleep early.

Tuesday was a funny day at work. Had 1 pain in the butt customer after another & it was all funny crap. I mean, to the point where I wanted to put a couple of them on speaker phone. That probably isn't good customer service, right?! I did however get a massive headache in the afternoon, which once again sent me to bed early. I began to worry that I was being lazy & stuff for the homestudy wasn't getting done.

Wednesday...ahhhh how I love Wednesday! It's my short day at work. Woke up with the same crappy headache, but finally felt better around noon. Left work early & came home to be productive! Cleaned the nursery & got everything organized & ready for the carpet cleaners on Saturday. Did almost all our homestudy paperwork, looked at some baby items a friend is willing to give us and ordered the nursery bedding & accessories (the monkey one).

Thursday I worked all day & then went with my mom for mani/pedi time. Nothing like ending a long day at work with a foot & hand massage, ahhhh.

Friday was pretty good too. The room that will be the nursery still had my old bed in it, as it been used for the guest room. Well, no more place for guest to stay other than on a blow up mattress in our living room! (opps) Anyway, my dad & DH were able to pack the bed up & move it to my parents for storage. So now the room is ready to go for a crib.

Saturday, I worked (I know, I know-I work a lot!) The DH stayed home & we had all the carpets cleaned & he finished up some last little things for the homestudy. I then decided at the last minute to take the DH on a date! We did dinner & saw Inception

Today we slept in, which meant it was 8! I know that isn't late for most, but for us...we were so excited! The DH then talked me into going out on his friend's boat for a couple hours for tubing & skiing. Then it was home to finish the last of the homestudy paperwork & let the DH finish the garage.

So yeah, pretty much my week! Here is a HUGE pat on the back if you just read all of that!! <>

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Day 25

Wow, it is already day 25 of 30! I cannot believe the 30 days is almost up.

Day 25 if my day in full detail....I hate to be a bore, but there really isn't much to say. I worked until 4, woot, woot & now I am doing this. I did however have Kiso at work today, which is abnormal for a Saturday, normally he stays home & has boy time with his daddy, however today the carpet cleaners came to get the carpet nice & clean before the homestudy.

Also decided to take the DH on a date tonight! We need a break to just have some dinner & a movie it is!

Too bad this post didn't fall on a weekday, when I could have some real fun customer stories or something more adventurous!

Yes or No?!

Yes or no?! Will you or won't you?

We did it; we filled out the paperwork on what we would & would not accept in LP. I had heard that this could be one of the hardest things you do in your adoption process & I can honestly say, they were not kidding!

The list was 6 pages long & some of the questions did not pertain to us, as they were dealing more with foster care. Our state does not have a separate form for adoption & foster care, they are all lumped into one.

It did not take us as long as we thought because we decided before we started if one of us waivered at all regarding a situation or condition then we would say "no". We figured it would be so much easier at this point if we had any doubts to say no, compared to when there was a child, with a referral & possibly accepting something we were not comfortable with. You know how it can fall in love when you see that face & have a hard time saying you just cannot do it.

There were things on the list that I would have never thought of. For example, would we accept a child of rape? There were also conditions that neither one of us had any idea of what it was & we had to consult Dr. Google. Did you know Macrocephaly means the child has an abnormally large head? We didn't, but we do now.

Anyways, what are we accepting?! I know you are wondering.

As I talked about a while back here we have always been open to the thought of a deaf child. We have never had a doubt cross our minds that we could do it. That a deaf child needs everything & deserves everything a child that can hear does. So YES, we said we would accept everything from minor hearing impairment to complete deafness.

This was the major condition we said we would accept. There were other minor things we said we would consider, however with LP coming to us as young as he or she will be, it will be very hard to know if they will have certain things.

We did say no to some things that we felt bad for turning down, however we just did not feel that we could handle it, especially for a 1st child.

I have to say, I felt a bit bad & as if it were unfair that we got to do this. We got to sit & fill out a list of what we would & would not take. When a woman gives birth, she is not this lucky & takes whatever she is given. I almost felt that it was a bit unfair & selfish of us, however I guess it all balances out when you look at the big picture. (pleeeease do not take this the wrong way)

We are both getting so very excited, as LP is getting more & more real to us as each day goes by. We are really going to be parents!

Friday, August 20, 2010

Where I Live

Today, day 24 I share where I please, admire our great state flag :)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Day 23

Today on YouTube day I am going to share some Jeff Dunham...because I love him!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Website, Day 22

I am a coupon junkie!! It's like a fun game to me to try to see how much I can save at the grocery. A website that I visit daily is Coupon Geek. This really is a great site, highly recommend it!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Day 21, A Recipe

Tater Tot Casserole

Ground Turkey: 1.5 lbs
Grilled Onions
Cream of Chicken Soup: 12 oz.
Cream of Mushroom Soup: 12 oz.
Tater Tots: 1 Bag
Cheese: as much as you like
I use Cajun Seasoning on my meat & diced green chilies.
Brown your meat & then layer a baking dish with the meat, onions, soups & then tator tots. Bake according to the directions on the tator tots bag. When the timer goes off pull it out & put your cheese on top & place back in the oven just long enough to melt the cheese.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Last Will

So all of this paperwork for the adoption leads to more paperwork, which leads to things you need to change in your life & things you need to take care of. This then leads to you doing your Will. Yep, that Will...the one nobody wants to do, but you have to at some point.

We do have to have some kind of Will in place for our adoption or at least have one in the works. Until we have LP we have decided just to do one of the simple ones online. However, these things, as simple as they may be really get you thinking.

I've always been an organ donor. I will not need them when I am gone & can only hope that my organs could help somebody else go on & live. This was a decision I made when I was 16 & got my license, so I have never thought more about it. When you start on a Will however, it gets so much more in depth.

Do you want to be buried or cremated? If you are cremated, do you want to have your ashes scattered or buried? Do you leave money behind for your pet(s) to be taken care of. All things you have maybe thought of in passing, but never really THOUGHT about.

I promise this post has a point & not just rambling about a Will & all that goes with it!

As I said earlier, I'm an organ I want to help. But then as I was working on my Will, I started thinking about other things. What about body donation? You hear about people donating their bodies to college & universities so that the med students have corpse to learn from. My parents are donating their brains to Harvard (did you know you can do that?!) What about donating your body for research on PCOS & infertility?!

This is something I would possibly be interested in. I want to help. I want to be able to possibly give my body so that others would not have to deal with what I have. This is something I have now talked to my DH about & he supports. He knows I would love to do whatever I can to keep other women from having to deal with all I have.

The Will isn't done yet, as I need to do more research & see what I can find out. Does anyone by chance know if something like this is even a possibility?!

I hate sounding morbid, I really do & I debated on writing this, as I wasn't sure how it would all come off...but I hope you all know it comes straight from the heart & if it could help 1 person, then it would be worth it!

Hobby Day 20

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Day 19-A Talent

I started dancing when I was 3. It was my life & my passion. You name the type of dance & I did it, along with teaching, being on the dance team & coaching.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Wedding Day 18

Our wedding was EXACTLY what I wanted. Small, intimate, on a beach & with the man I was heads of heels in love with. I really could not have asked for anything more. If it were an option, I would do it again in a heartbeat!

To read more about us go here

Friday, August 13, 2010

Day 17-Art Piece

Nothing beats any of Degas pieces dealing with dance!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

16th Day-Song That Makes Me Cry

This was the song that my dad & I danced to at my wedding. He is a huge Ozzy fan, so it was perfect. But this song still gets me every time!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Dream House on Day 15

When it comes to a dream house, mine really is a hodge podge of things! I want a wrap around porch, & wood floors. I want the decorating to be modern inside & all the plants to be easy & no require me to do much!

It's important to my DH & I to have a nice yard so that LP has plenty of room for a swing set & room to play.

I also want a big garage for our cars & for the DH to have room to "play" & keep his things.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Day 14

Today is a Non-Fictional Book! So Ann Rule's book, A Rose For Her Grave is my book. If you like a good mystery, but also  like reading non-fiction, then I recommend any of her books. All true stories!

Monday, August 9, 2010

Fiction Book, Day 13

Oh! The Places You’ll Go!
You’ll be on your way up!
You’ll be seeing great sights!
You’ll join the high fliers who soar to high heights.
You won’t lag behind, because you’ll have the speed. You’ll pass the whole gang and you’ll soon take the lead. Wherever you fly, you’ll be best of the best. Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don’t.
Because, sometimes, you won’t.
I’m sorry to say so but, sadly, it’s true that Bang-ups and Hang-ups can happen to you.
You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch. And your gang will fly on. You’ll be left in a Lurch.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Day 12=OCD

I am OCD about the light switches! They all have to be facing the same way. I will even walk into one room to turn a light on, if it means that the switches will then be the same way in another.

I'm obsessive about it. But I guess if I am going to be OCD about something, that isn't so bad...right?!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Versatile Blogger Award

The amazing Keiko over at Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed gave me this blogger award. I am humbled by recieving this from such an amazing lady that is fighting so hard for IF! If you have not checked her out, please do & MAKE SURE you check out her video that was a Resolve winner! (Have tissues handy)

Now, on to the award & thank you again Keiko!!

Here is how the Versatile Blogger Award works:
1) Thank and talk about whoever gave you the award
2) Share 7 facts about yourself
3) Give the award to 7 other bloggers who rock!

About Moi
1) When I drink coffee, I like having it with water. I mean, like drink about half my coffee, take a break & have a big glass of water than back to the coffee...I feel lost if I drink coffee & not have water!
2) I would rather eat ethnic food over American food any day! I love Vietnamese, Indian, name it, I'll eat it!
3) I don't like pepper...yep, black pepper. Please don't cook with it, put it on my food, nothing. May sound boring, but I promise it's not!!
4) I do not wear high heels. Have not worn them in 2 years. I can't wear them anymore without 1 of my feet swelling greatly-thank you foot surgery.
5) I want Lasik..very, very bad! One day I hope I can get it, however I am not sure if I would know what to do when I woke up in the morning & could see.
6) I love pulling weed, but hate to garden. I do not have a green thumb, I can kill anything! But there is something about weed pulling that is calming to me.
7) I'm really bad about looking at the big picture & freaking out! I need to be better about looking at just little bits & pieces & taking it 1 step at a time.

The Versatile Blogger Award Goes to the Following 7 Bloggers (in no particular order):

1) Cheryl over at Chasing A Miracle. Cheryl only has a very little time before she meets her baby, George! She is always such an amazing source of support & is so incredibly strong. I cannot wait to follow her on the rest of her journey as she becomes a mom later this month!
2) Ashley over at For the Love of Shoes....and Baby Too. Ashley is getting ready to find out the sex of her little miracle after doing IVF. Please go show her some love & support as she goes on this amazing journey to become a mother!
3) Katie at From IF to When. Katie is AMAZING!! She is willing to put herself out there & say what so many of us want to say, but may be to scared of. Katie is currently embarking on a new journey in her life & IF. Please go show her some support & follow her blog to follow a lady that is not afraid to put it out there. She deserves a big round of applause for doing what she is.
4) Courtney at The Peeks is starting her journey to bring home (a) sibling(s) for her 3 angel boys. She is a woman that has been through so much that is unthinkable. She is so brave & strong. I am so excited for her & her family as they start on this new journey of IVF .
5) Michelle at No, I'm Not Pregnant, Just Fat is about to embark on her IVF journey. This will be her first  IVF & I am sure would appreciate all your love & support during this stressful time! Best of luck, everything is crossed for you!!
6) Nicole over at All Grown Up... Is an open adoption blogger with a new baby girl, Tulip. She has had some questions lately about open adoption & I'm sure would appreciate any words of wisdom you may be able to give. Follow her on this unforgettable journey as a first time mom!!
7) Grace over at Chois-R-Us is a fellow international adoptive mom to be! She will be a mom of a beautiful baby boy from Korea before too long! Follow her on this adventure.

The Versatile Blogger Award Goes to the Following 7 Bloggers that I've pulled from my Twitter feed (in no particular order):

Day 11

A picture of me now, well kind of!

Friday, August 6, 2010

Pregnancy Belly?!

Somebody touched my belly today & told me I looked pregnant. I must have given her a look because she then stuttered out that my shirt looked like maternity wear she wore back in the day! Now, I know that I have put on 4lbs in the past couple months, but really?! Really?!

She knows all about what my DH & I have been through & are currently going through & she says this to me? I was in complete shock! I did not know if I should get mad that she said that or that I have gained weight or both. I also wasn't sure if I should be mad because she was ballsy enough to say it!

What person in their right mind says something to another lady unless they are CLREALY, like 9 months pregnant...why in the heck would you even speak those words?

I will admit though, it did make me a bit sad, because I will never been 9 months pregnant & I never will  get somebody to pat my belly & say those words.

Oh well, guess it just means more time on the treadmill for me! I have learned during this journey sometimes you just have to let things roll off your back. Easier said than done, that is for sure...but the truth. 

Picture Over 10 Years Old

Day 10 is a picture of you over 10 years old. So here it is! I loved that my mom put me in a ladybug bikini! It's too cute

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Day 9-Picture I Took

This was in the back of a cab in St. Louis & I had to take a picture!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Angry Day 8

It just really bugs me when a woman is blessed enough to be pregnant & does not take care of herself & the baby well enough! This picture is day 8...a picture that makes me angry

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Day 7-Make Me Happy

The boardwalk I walked down to marry my DH!

Monday, August 2, 2010

30 of 30

Today is the final day of the 30 day blog. This really has been fun & I have enjoyed it!

The last question of this 30 days is: A dream for the future.

I want to be a good mother. I want LP to know how much they were loved & wanted; even before LP was a boy or a girl. I want them to know that adoption was never a 2nd best of us, that this was how we truly were meant to be a family.

I want to be there for the first day of kindergarten & be at home when they get off the bus. I want to be around for the first dance class or soccer game (or whatever they want to do). I want to see them grow up & be there for them.

I just want LP to have the best up brining they could possibly have. Being loved, cared for & nurtured.

That is my dream for the future.

Time to Play Catch Up!!

I feel like with all the stuff going on with the garage sale, I haven't had much time to talk about my appointment with Dr. Phonebook on Friday.

First..the garage sale went really well! For the last minute changes we had to make & and deciding at the last minute to add Sunday to it, we did really well! We even had perfect strangers donating money, just 1 step closer to bringing LP home!! It was really interesting too because we put that the sale was for an adoption when listing it in the papers, so we got a lot of adoptive families. We had 1 mother & daughter come & talk with us a long time; the girl was adopted from Russia. We really enjoyed getting to talk to others & hear stories....all so heart warming. It was also so amazing to me how many people thanked us. Thanked us for opening our hearts to a child & giving them a better life. We have never thought of this as saving a child..this is just something that is right for us & we are doing it because we want to. All in all, the sale was great & the stories were worth all the sweat & hard work we put into it. The over $800 we raised wasn't too shabby either!!

Then after the garage sale was torn down on Sunday, we went to a cookout at QuackBack's house to meet all the wonderful friends that helped them have a garage sale for us. It was so heart warming to be sitting in a house of 6 perfect strangers that were so selfless & care so much to help us start our family. It really was an overwhelming experience to meet all these wonderful people. They were all so fun & caring...we had a blast!

Now to my doctors appointment. Honestly the garage sale & everything could not have come at a better time, because it kept my mind off things. I know there is no need to freak, but that is easier said that done.

I will be the first to say that I do not do my self breast exams as much as I should; shame on me, this I know! I don't know why I don't do them more...maybe because I am scared of what I may find or maybe because I've always had fiboris breast & felt that I would never be able to tell if something is wrong. Having a friend that is only 31 & currently fighting stage 4 breast cancer, I really should be better about it all. But what is in the past is in the past & cannot be changed, but I will promise that I will never miss a self exam again!

Upon Dr. Phonebook doing my breast exam, he did the left, then the right & he stayed on the right & went back to 1 side on the left & back to the right (never a good sign). He then proceed to want me to feel what he was feeling...I think this is when I stopped paying a lot of attention because I did not want to cry. He was not overally concerned, which I trust him, so I tried not to freak. He explained to me that he felt it was a cyst & asked me to cut back, if not quit caffeine & to rub vitamin E cream on daily. He then made an appointment for me to come back in a month & have it rechecked. Of course in the midst of all this, I never found out if my ovarian cyst were still there or not...guess I'll find out next time.

So, I have offically given up all caffeine. Even handed my Starbucks card over to my DH. I am not eating any sort of chocolate, no Aleve, nothing. I am taking this seriously & if this is what it is, then I will make sure I do not continue to make it worse by putting more caffeine in my body.

I will say after consulting Dr. Google, I do feel better. From what it feels like & the description, I really do think it is a cyst, but only time will tell.

This has also shocked me a bit & made me realize I really do need to start taking better care of myself. I need to spend more time on me. So I am going to be better about going to acupuncture & I am starting yoga with my BFF, along with running every other day.

If this is just something to scare me a bit, then it's worked!

Day 6, The Big 20

Today's question is to list 20 of my favorite things! So here they are, in no particular order
1) My DH
2) My Dog
3) My Subaru
4) Little Foot
5) Cruises
6) Dancing
7) The opportunity to adopt
8) The support of our families
9) Good pair of jeans
10) Starbucks
11) The smell of fresh cut grass
12) Fall
13) Football
14) How my DH & I never go to sleep without a goodnight kiss
15) My amazing IRL & Twitter friends
16) How my DH will make me laugh til I cry
17) iPod
18) My Mac
19) Sleeping with the windows open
20) The smell of vanilla

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Favorite Quote-Day 5

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