Thursday, September 9, 2010

Waiting List


I made a mistake! I really should know better...but I went to the waiting child list.

I do this from time to time. Not because I want to give  up on Colombia or anything; but just because I cannot help myself. I look at these children & my heart breaks. I wish so badly there was so much more I could do. That I did not have to worry about money or care or anything & be able to help so many of these sweet children that deserve the world.

So here I was last night, doing what I know I shouldn't & going through the list. I fell in love. I saw this most amazing little boy. He was 8 months old, deaf and just was calling to me. It didn't help either when I saw he had the same birthday as my husband. I can honestly say that if we were completely homestudy ready that I would have written about him right then & there! Something just seemed right. I showed him to the DH & he too fell in love! (uh oh, never good when we are both in love)

I figured we could write about him as soon as our homestudy goes through, as he was just posted 2 days ago. I went today to show him to my mom & he was gone!! My heart sank, the little boy that stole my heart was gone, but then again, I couldn't help but smile. I really hope the fact that he is no longer on the site means he found a good home.

I know I shouldn't look at the list...but I can only imagine if my heart can go out to this little guy like it did..what it will be like when I see LP for the first time!

5 comments:

  1. I don't think you shouldn't look at the list. Why not? If a child speaks to both you and your husband, you should look into it. Don't hate me for writing this, but if it's meant to be, it will be. I have all of the hope and faith in the world that the right child will find you. It could be in the way that you expected, or not. I sincerely hope that the little boy you fell in love with last night has found a wonderful home.

    Thinking of you always. <3

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  2. This post made me smile <3 I can't wait for y'all to get you little one!

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  3. I like looking at lists every once and again too...but they are terrible for you! The kiddies are always so adorable. If I could, I'd adopt them all! I'm glad you are looking into another means of adoption though. Something will pull through!

    ~Jess
    http://bringingyoumorethanasong.blogspot.com/

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  4. awe - you should ALWAYS look at the list...I think it is a great way to find a child who could be part of your family...yes there will be disappointment, but there will also be the day when it's THE ONE. *hugs*

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  5. I understand this so well. We were starting fertility treatments/workups and I just knew that I wanted to have one of our own and adoption wouldn't be the same. Well after our patient education class we found out that they wanted us to pay between 800-1000 a month for a Clomid cycle. I was depressed and felt like my dream of being a mom would never come true. As a last resort I requested some info about domestic adoption through our state. A few days later I was busy trying to figure out how we would come up with enough money to do three months of treatments. I opened the mail and found the information about adoption and a website that had pictures of waiting children. I went to the page out of boredom and started looking at pictures. They looked like strangers, kids I would pass on the street and smile at but that was about it. Then...I came to a little girl that was eight years old and she stole my heart. That day we called the state and started the ball rolling. Next month we are taking our training classes and will start our home study. I can not wait.

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